I cannot even bring myself to believe this is happening. I am living in denial and really do not want to face the truth. I may not have seen you everyday but whenever we talked, it was as though no day had passed. You did everything you said you wanted to do - you ventured the world and did life in a way that made you happy. I settled down and had kids; I was always envious - in a good way :) I missed you every time something amazing happened (which I'm so glad you were there when Aidan was born) and you were the first person I called when I felt like my world was falling apart. You, to date, were the only one who knew EVERYTHING about me, good and bad. It felt so good talking to you just a few weeks ago about "life" because you always just understood. We were always suppose to "get together." I'd come there, you'd come here but life got in the way. I will forever regret not taking the time to come see you yet I will always cherish every memory of our times together. There will never be anyone that will ever get me the way you did. I'm so blessed to have had you in my life for so long. You made my high school years the best and during my late teens and early 20's, I survived because of you. I can't even use the term best friend; you were my sister (except I don't think there was ever a time I was mad at you unlike the many times I made you mad lol) I am angry, I am devastated, I am sad yet I know you are in a better place than the rest of us. I know Lee and your brother were waiting for you. I cannot fear the day God takes me because I know you and Lee will be there to welcome me. Until then, I will have my very bad days missing you but I will try my best to have good days; remembering all of the craziness we went through. I love you beyond words my beautiful friend. What I'd give to go back to October, when you were standing in my room, talking politics and laughing at how much alike we are. Look over my boys please; they are my rocks in all my times of sadness such as now. I love you forever and always.
